I saw someone’s PCT countdown timer today, they have 16 weeks. One week shy of when I make the drive down to Campo for my own PCT trek.
I’m trying so hard not to watch the days pass by. I don’t mark days down on my calendar and calculate exactly how many seconds/minutes/hours I have left until I leave, but I at least look at my own countdown on my phone.
The blue circle is running out of life. I would also like an award for being one of the few people on the internet to screencap their phone while having a battery over 10%, you can hold the applause until the end.
Time is such a weird thing. I feel like I’ve been trying to sprint through mud waiting for this to happen, and suddenly I only have less than four months to do the things I need to do before the trail. I have to box up all my stuff for storage, sell all my things I never use, find a solid situation for my dog while I’m gone. And holy shit I need to buy my last couple pieces of gear. Oh god I still don’t have maps!
What was once giddy anticipation is now almost.. I don’t know.. pain? I’ll think about the trail and a wave of heartbreak rushes over me. “I’ll get there.. I’ll get there” I utter, and I go through a sequence of things I know will be coming:
Dry, warm, dusty wind.
Waking up to a golden morning after cowboy camping, either with a group or without.
Being ungodly hot.
Laughing hysterically.. either with a group or without. I’m the ‘smile through adversity’ kind of person. I laugh if I’m uncomfortable, if I’m offended, scared, or if I’m exorbitantly happy. If I’m frowning, you know serious shit is going down.
I love Washington. I can’t begin to describe how beautiful this state is, even in the awfully populated and noisy city I live in, it’s easy to still feel connected with nature. I see all kinds of wild life meandering the streets all the time. And I really do love the rain. But man I can not wait for some sun (I’m going to be eating these words so hard, I just know it). I didn’t get seasonal depression the first couple years I lived here, but last year I got it hardcore, this year less so because I have this to work towards.. but yeah, constant cloud coverage can be brutal sometimes.
Well.. I have some stuff to do, then. I’d like to share this song with you though, it’s kind of been my theme the last few days since I found it.